Maria Shriver remembers her divorce from Arnold Schwarzenegger as a “brutal” experience.

“It broke my heart, it broke my spirit, it broke what was left of me,” the journalist wrote in his new poetry book I’m Maryper. Excerpt.

Shriver, 69, has written about how her world collapsed between 2009 and 2011, specifically with Terminator The actor’s admission to having the father of a love child with their housekeeper Mildred Baena, Per People Magazine.

“Without my marriage, my parents blew, a job dam of my lifelong capital-D denying just apart,” Mary added, referring to her mother and father, Eunice and Sargent Shriver, who died in 2009 and 2011 respectively.

“Now a lot has been written about the end of my marriage, and frankly I don’t want to need or want to discuss this or anywhere,” the publication quoted further the excerpt that is available with them.

For those who are not daring, former Governor of California greeted his son Joseph Baena, now 27, in 1997, with his housekeeper while married to Shriver – who remained unaware of her husband’s secret son until he confessed during their marriage counseling in 2011.

Shriver also remembered his children – Katherine, 35, Christina, 33, Patrick, 31, and Christopher, 27 – over the news with “Grace, Valor and Courage.”

“Everything about their world and the holiness of their homes was upset in a moment,” she wrote.

The author “What’s Heaven” said she “was devoured by grief and wrapped with confusion, anger, fear, sadness and anxiety” and “was uncertain now for who I was, where I heard at home.”

“Honestly, it was brutal and I was scared,” she added.

The mother of four talked about telling herself “Mary, this doesn’t have to be the end of you,” at that time after crying in the dark in his hotel room.

Shriver requested divorce from Schwarzenegger, 77, in July 2011, but their divorce only ended in December 2021.

Schwarzenegger has also dealt with the dissolution of his half-year-long marriage and adultery in a Netflix documentary from 2023.

“The reason I feel reluctant to talk about it is because every time I do it, it opens the wounds again. I think I’ve caused enough pain for my family because of my f *** up.”

“I have to live with it for the rest of my life. People will remember my successes and they will also remember my failures. This is a great failure,” he shared.