Chrissy Teigen became honest about his evolving relationship with alcohol in a vulnerable post.

The 39-year-old model took to his Instagram account to share a teaser of the latest episode of her podacast, Self -consciousWhere she opened up her sobering journey.

“Holly Whitaker changed my life, changed my perspective and changed how I see the f ****** animal that is alcohol,” wrote Teigen referral to Holly Whitakers Biik, who stopped like a woman. “But to admit to all of you that I let it back in my life … to let a lot of you down, oh, I feel it deeply. I was so proud every time one of you told me on the street that Holly and I made you want to consider drinking, reframe drinking. I am still.”

The mother of four went on to say, “The truth is that I don’t know what I’m doing. I do a hundred percent know I like me better sober. I hundred percent know I get more done, I definitely feel better in my body without it. And I’m a hundred percent mad that I can’t be normal and have a cocktail with my husband on Vacay without it turning 8 and feeling like S ***.”

Chrissy Teigen said she was tired of getting sick of drinking during the week and wouldn’t feel like she needed alcohol to talk in front of people.

“I hate that the idea of ​​maybe having a drink can consume me for a few days,” she wrote. “So your rational mind is probably like“ OK So Stop, B ****! “And God, I agree!”

Chrissy Teigen said she is now handling slip-ups better and knows how things could get worse if she is not careful. Currently, she plans to be aware of drinking.

She concluded her post with gratitude to her supporters to let her share her journey and shouted to the duck society.